pursuit of happiness!

Is happiness really a matter of choice? if it is,then why on earth would anyone choose to be unhappy? Its amazing how some people managed to be happy at all times.  Real happiness should be reserved to those who really deserve it!
Filipinos celebrate almost everything- its pay day! lets party!, its your birthday! lets celebrate!,its raining lets drink to that!, its midnight! how does a pajama party sound!?.  I hate seeing happy people,

bad weird dream!

i had a terrible dream! i was having fun with friends inside our subdivision when i realized that our house is the only house in the area.  I ignored it because our house in palmera is really the only occupied house in our block so this is nothing new.  we left went somewhere else and when i got back i found that somebody set the house on fire.  I was so furious and decided to call our realtor to file a complain.  After a couple rings somebody picked up and listened to me rattle, then i heard a woman said that this is just a demonstration of what she could do, first the house then she will kill/ hunt my brother ( i do not have a brother in real life ) 
Her voice is so cold but her threat is so real! a couple of minutes later i found my self talking to a friend ( someone i dont even like ) i forgot how the conversation went but its all about the incident, then i went home and found our house somewhere else untouched ( on top of a hill! like somebody just moved it like a toy! ).
I know that the plot doesnt make sense  but this is a dream its not supposed to make sense.  So i went up the hill and rushed in, theres a baby boy inside lying on a bed, a voice told me not to touch or wake him up because the boy is dreaming so i just ignored the little guy but there is something wrong with the way boy i couldnt tell if its is dead or not.
I once again heard a female voice instructing me not to wake him up because thats me sleeping and waking him up will kill me in real life. ( the voice sounded like my mother but i know its not her and theres no one else inside the house except for the baby boy and me- its really just a voice over just like in commercials ).
i look out a window and i saw a couple of guys killing another guy- its my brother! how i know its my brother ? i really dont know i just know!

juggling!

I have enough problems of my own but somehow i still always managed to mess with others concerns that should have been other wise outside my own. On the other hand, i know a handful of people so oblivious they either pretend not to care or worse they really don't give a hoot.

In the animal kingdom the rule of thumb is always self preservation, and how special are we to deviate? Animals spawn/ multiply but once their offspring is old enough to hunt their own food its back to survival of fittest theme. I think this is what makes us human, we have the ability to empathize,to care and sometimes even impose ourselves and give unsolicited advice.  

Then i realized that it would have been easier for me to help if both my hands are free to  lend assistance, but then again when would that time come? its not like there will come a day when i'll be totally worry free and i can spend time helping and worrying about someone else s problem!

For the meantime i'll just juggle my own personal dilemma, do my best to resolve it and not wait for somebody to help me with it.  For all i know they too are juggling their own burden it would be unfair to expect them to juggle yours!

* image used not mine